I am overcome by many emotions this Christmas, some that I expected, and some I did not. As would be expected, I am awash with gratefulness that Tyrone is with us and safe. We have him...HERE! WITH US! We have just so much to praise God for....our family is back in sync. As good as my kids are, they knew that our family wasn't "right" for 13 months. In the boys, it showed. There were some real struggles that probably no one but Tyrone, Mom, and Melissa knew about. Now, we are whole....and the boys are reflecting that. It is beautiful...and I'm still just soaking in the "rightness" of things being as they were meant to be.
What I did not expect is that the trauma - yes, truly trauma - of deployment would not just magically fade. It does not manifest in problems in our relationship...I know of alot of people having problems in that area, and I feel for them. We are blessed to be on the same page, with lots of patience and understanding to spare between us. But I thought that I would be able to hear sad songs, or look at pics of soldiers, or do a thousand other things that probably seem of no consequence without tears....but, more then that, without a feeling of heartache and loss. Of course, it is all mixed up with my thankfulness and pure joy at having Tyrone with us.
All in all, this Christmas has so much meaning.....God has given us life, and he has given us Tyrone's life, and a life to share together. I couldn't ask for more. Merry Christmas1
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Merry Christmas to you too my Bestest Bailey! Wish we could have all been together to celebrate, but maybe next year! I love yall and kiss the kids for me!! Love Lissa
Bailey I know exactly what you are talking about. Even this far down the line of Steven being home I still experience things that I did not expect to be experiencing this far into the future. But nonetheless I am so grateful that Tyrone and Steven are HOME!!!! Enjoy each other and never lose focus on your marriage, it is God given as is all our relationships and we must be grateful everyday of our lives. I am so happy for you both, it just makes me well up with tears. You are so special to me Bailey.
Love you, Kristy
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